A Mother´s Heart

As I have been without internet for the last several weeks, and since I have it today for the first morning in a long time, I realized how much of a hinder this internet is to my relationship with God. I have been able, without it, to have so much more time with Him, I have gotten closer and that is something I don´t want to lose. I have been missing though, pouring my heart out in this blog as well.

As a mother, I have such a burder to be the mother God´s wants me to be. I know I can´t be perfect, but I want to fullfill God´s will for me as a mom.

I look around and see children that has been given such a great opportunity to serve God, they have been given every tool they need to never have to look back on regret for a season of their lifes not being used for His honor. Still, they put that tool aside as if it wasn´t anything of importance and they want to ¨live their lifes¨.

That mind set is scary for me, as I have three little girls. I want nothing more than a life without regrets for them. I want a life lived for God for them. That leaves me praying for wisdom and seeking God´s guiadance everyday for His leading in my life as I lead them while my husband is at work.

" My Lord, my God, I beg for your wisdom in my life. Wisdom to raise my girls in your love and fear. Help me to teach them and not to break them. Show me when to discipline and when to love. Help me to disciple in love. Guide me and lead me to be a mother that glorifies your name. And to you, my God, I´ll give the honor and glory for everything you are going to do. In the name of Jesus. Amen".

Proverbs 4


Jill said...

A beautiful post, Pilar. Raising children is an incredibly scary thing. I sometimes wonder why God chose me for this task, but then I remember that He DID choose me. That means He knows I CAN do it. But I have to do it in His strength and not my own.

Laura said...

Good to hear from you, Pilar. Are you getting settled in your new house? Do you love it? I'm there with you, girl, on the mothering ~ crying out to God often. If you have any insights, I'd love to hear them.

Cathryn said...

Pilar, It has been so long since I have been to visit. I had to step away from blogland for personal reasons (which I share on my blog) but I really missed it. You may not even remember me. :) I am checking back in with everyone and have begun to write again what God lays on my heart. Life got in the way of things but hopefully I will be back often to visit now. I understand completely what you mean about the time factor in blogging. My three little girls are all grown up now but I can only imagine how hard it is to even fit blogging in with three sweet little dumplins. :) It surely is a balance. I hope you and your family are doing well. Blessings, Cathryn at Redeemed by the Blood of the Lamb

Dani Joy said...

I totally empathize. feel what you wrote. feel it deeply.
I feel like I am breaking my boys sometimes. I pray this prayer with you. Thank you for sharing your heart.
I haven´t been posting much either. missed several weeks. But enjoy keeping up with it maybe once a week.
Don´t want to miss my time with Him, either.

Dani Joy

Anonymous said...

Hi :) I was browsing around one of the KJV sites and stumbled on your Blog. I'm Kristy, homeschooling mother to 4 girls. I loved this post and wanted to say hi. Have a blessed Sunday <3